世界上有种小人，终是希望周围的人可怜他，怜悯他，但却非常不愿意别人小看他。基本上，他就是那种什么都要，却万分都不愿意付出的人。这种人在附近，连空气都变得污染了。
My thoughts right now compared to what am trying to post last week makes so much differences, maybe a week cool down period is the best time after all? Probably should do the same towards my personal drive, ask me again one week later and if the answer is still yes, then yes. But if no or silent, then please go away, quietly. Oh can I start by saying how I have this weird habit, where I'd screenshot convo which makes me either sound super smart, or just super inspiring and/or touching? It could either be me or by someone else, I tend to read back what was written and basically just enjoyed every words at that very moment but uhh when I do get angry, I'd delete them all too tho. So yea its either no die or...die. Right lets go on with another good news!
So one of my junior staff has been mourning over her ex who just broke up with her coz he finds her "less and less attractive". And there she is being so emotional trigger that she is basically blaming herself for not being "enough" for the ex. I was shaking my head....
Girl, you think he is the only man in this entire fucking world? What makes him think he can just judge you like that? He think he is what? Brad Pitt??? (too old for her so I said how abt BTS??) Who is him to judge. Could you break up with him for his bean dick?? Omg please do better. Go live your life. No rebound relationship tho. But enjoy life. Find sparks, make sparks!! You're so young. Go wild please. You deserve better.
I like it when am being put in another position, I tend to be more clear headed, and I'd be telling what is best for them, especially as girls. But well when it comes to advice for myself, I tend to...get lost alot. Soooo this new guy has been asking if I wanted to chill at his house, you know have some dinner and watch some movie etc (this was before the whole covid-19 situation became too serious), I'm not really a fan of going to his house tbh, so I actually offered for him to come to my house instead, to which he ask what kind of dinner will I prefer (like japanese, western or chinese food etc) and GUESS WHAT. Dumbass me suggested to cook for him.........to which he happily complied!!
Trust me if eating my words is a possible act I'd have eat every letters at that very moment.....
Ok not that my cooking sucks. well not like a pro chef or what but what am I suppose to make?? Pasta??? but with what?? What is the side dish?? Appetizer?? Desserts?? Oh fuck how abt main dish? SO NOW WHAT 7 COURSE HUH. Not to say am trying to cook to charm someone, especially those unspark relationship, but I god damn doesn't want to have someone ghosting me due to my food too!!! My god. And what if he is allergic to something? YA LA I know he'd tell me what, but what if he didn't know?? and he ate that one ingredient inside that makes him all unwell and end up diarrhea or faint? well nothing worst than that ofcoz BUT STILL. Too many unforeseen situation. HOW DO I UNDO THIS.
Andddd just when I was running out of hands to cover up my face, I was finally rescued!!! By the MOH!! Due to unforeseen pandemic situation we've to follow covid-19 new guidelines set by MOH (It was on the news too) soooo yaaaaaaa oh oh and that include no moving around unless absolutely necessary (HEHEHEHE) I actually sound happier knowing we have to cancel all the plans tho.
Also other than screwing up the dinner menu, I also screwed up the tv show to watch too. He ask me to pick any I'd like to watch. And that time Squid Game was still new so I said THAT. And you know what I did, yes I did just that. I thought finishing it is fine, since I can watch it the second time with him coz the show was soooo good. But guess what, yes, I watched the SECOND time, alone. I mean come on the 3rd time watching together wud just be me nomming on snacks and just making the sound effects of what is going to happen next. I truly believe I'm subconsciously sabotaging the entire date thats not even happening yet! I'm glad I did tho.
Again, if you can't be the one, then please walk away. Right now I'm either all...or nothing.
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